fidel's sick

okay. i'm feeling really horrible
had a bad tummy the whole day and i thought it was the usual's. just some small problem but the pain eventually did NOT go away hmm den went to see a doc at like 11pm. food poisoning
eww. stayed up the whole night puking, and woke up feeling all weak and wobbly. the medicine's horrible it's like powdered chalk. and im supposed to mix it with warm water, powdered chalk+water=chalk water. try imagining drinking chalk water ? i was like crying while im trying to mix it up this morning. its so gross, stayed in bed for the rest of the day. so ppllleeaassee
people stop telling me to rest more hahas. my tummy's still feeling really weird, rumbling tumbling. i want my darling. i wanna see him.

i.. love my baobei

hehe
we're back together again
sweet ~
hope we'll be as loving as before
like before someone EXTRA ever came between us.

i love him,
i miss your huggie darling !
hehe.
so sweet cuddle together and sleep huggie so tight !
awww~
so warm so nice
he's only MINE !
WAHAHAHAS.
lolss

the sky without him, is still.. beautiful

0312'o5
hahas today mad mad de, went to airport in the morning den went to east coast hehe.
riding on a bike, IN A MINISKIRT! >.<
crazy! hahas. we went to get the trolley for lugggages
and we sat on trolley thingy hahas, omg.
den one of us will run and push the trolley omg,
den i went screaming lolss. it was crazy hahas.
so fun ! hahas den afterdat we went to east coast hehe.
aiyo.. everyone fell down.. hope jeline's fine by now.
night we were sitting on the beach,
making sand castle =,= yeah i know its dumb hahas,
but its so fun. den we went to buy sparkles den play play play,
scream like mmmmaaaaddd lolss.
the four of us. going crazy hahas.


i realized, the sky without him could still be so beautiful.
nothing's changed, except him.

carrying on with life ?

WHOO HOO! shuai nehh !





wahh today go shopping
dunno lehh so weird
only slapped on some loose powder and mascara and i went out le
TOTALLY SO NATURAL
LOLSS. don't someone love it ?
today go shopping with mummy and ahma!
hahas jeline and shaoming lolss.
super funny sia
went to bugis hehe
fidel bought a top, mummy bought a belt, ahma didnt buy anything
shaoming hao shuai nehh !!! see the photo, see see on top on top
wahh. look so mature le arhh somebody.
lolss. den he wore the blazer thingy with the shirt and stuff
i told jeline wahh wahh, we can go jio him liao !
LOLSS. joking las.
den that salesman in that shop at far east,
AHLARMAK. i really dunno is he working of flirting sia
still say he is 16, dun believe lorhs.
he really look at least 18 lorhs.
lolss. working still wanna take number
can you believe it man.
work work work halfway suddenly turn around and give me his number
den ask for my number
i was like uhh.. omg faints.
aarrgghh. im so tired.
my whole body's aching like mad
WHAT'S HAPPENING !! so painful ! =(
nobody to sayang me also.
i miss him so so so so so much.
just purely miss him so so so much.
thursday
i'd love thursday:)
because you live ~
LALALA.

Staring out at the rain with a heavy heart
It's the end of the world in my mind
Then your voice pulls me back like a wake up call
I've been looking for the answer
SomewhereI couldn't see that it was right there
But now I know what I didn't know

Because you live and breathe
Because you make me believe in myself when nobody else can help
Because you live, boy
My world has twice as many stars in the sky

1411'05
monday hmm, go out with felicia wor hahas
actually morning she wanna make cookies at my hse de
but in the end came to my house and talktalk hehe
den afterdat we went shopping wor
bought a top hehe

1611o5
today morning went to sch wor
actually class from 11-12 de
waliew but that old toad LATE FOR ONE HOUR SIA ! >.<>.<>

jus loved that comfy, close feel.

LAPIXIAOXINIE

To LAPIXIAOXINIE :

xiaoxinie was someone i always told my problems to.
xiaoxinie was someone who was there to listen to me patiently
during that horrible period of time.
xiaoxinie was someone who will never go away and avoid me when i say i've got problems
xiaoxinie was someone who always tries to cheer me up when im feeling sad.
xiaoxinie was someone who does crazy things to make me laugh.
xiaoxinie was someone who wanted me to be happy, superduper happy.
xiaoxinie was someone who stop those tears for flowing
xiaoxinie will be alright.
xiaoxinie will still be jumping around after the operation
what low sucess rate, rubbish.
xiaoxinie will always be here for pancakie.
don't you dare walk away.
or else pancakie will be very very sad
xiaoxinie wouldnt want pancakie to be superduper sad right ?
xiaoxinie want pancakie to be super happy de right ?
xiaoxinie will not leave pancakie without anyone to talk to her when she has problems right ?

tomorrow's operation will be a sucess,
xiaoxinie must continue to be sotsot de, always make people happy de
xiaoxinie will be okay, he will be.

okies.
wow, so long didnt blog le :)
hmm HOLIDAYS!
what have i been up to ?

2610'05
hmm went to yishun to buy new hp with darling
N70 !!
hehe. wahh but wait very long hor ?
den we went to watch april snow wor
OMG it was like superduper boring
the whole cinema is only occupied with 3 AUNTIES , me & darling
ahlarmaks the movie was like AAAHHHHHH. boring
but hehe we made it exciting hor, darling? *winks*

2710'05
hehe CLASS GATHERING !!
super duper fun nehh ! hehe
ok i blogged about this already, jus rmb-ed =,="
but jus to update some of the photos we took dat day
just got it from shellchi














fidel playing pool
mooie , oinkie , bunnie >.<

3110'05
made shepherd pie for darling orhh
hehe den afterdat went to his place
hehe so sweet

0111'05
hmm went to sentosa with doggie
wahh but i sick >.<>
AARRHH T-T down with gastric flu,
vomit vomit vomit wahh feeling horrible


0311'05
hehe today jason de birthday
den darling pei me go celebrate with him
go play pool lor wahh siann nehh owaes play pool de !! >.<
den afterdat meet leon de friends wor hmm
hahas WU GUI XIAN !!
so funny *giggles*
cos actually meet to go watch ocean's concert together de
den afterdat we saw the queue
omg so long
den we gave away the tickets to
den in the end we went to watch tom- yum-goong
den his friends go k-box ahlarmaks



1011'05
fourteen14FOURTEEN4teen months lo !!!!
hehehehe
today i 7 am wake up lo !!!
then cannot sleep le >.<
wake up le cant slp VERY TIRED LEH !
BUT ! still cant slp =,=
den i make cookie nors
waliew 7am make cookies
i think i abit kuku le aiyo
den afterdat went to darling de sch pei him during his breaktime wor !
hehehe darling bought starburst gummi for me !
hehe and wonka caramel bars
ahlarmaks the day before,
i bought exactly the same chocolate bars for darling
darling bought it on the same day as i did
"XIN YOU LING XI"!!!
hehe i think darling in sch too lonely le
hehe *smuggled* me into his lecture, go "TAN BAN ! " >.<>
den after lecture we went to watch emily rose
wwhhoo. hehe ok la hehe
so sweet darling hugged me and watch
awww :)
den darling send me home
hehe den go home bath le
so tired wor,
darling told me to drink milk before orhorh den make myself slp
drink le, lie on bed then doze off le
darling called me at 1am o.O
i was like zzz.. darling say alot sweet thingy orhh
but only half go in nehh

1111'o5
hmm..today so boring wor
wake up at 8 again
cant go back to sleep le ;(
hmm stayed in bed for awhile den
woke up ate cereals with milk
den go online hmm
billy very nice wor :)
very very very nice wor
thankiew thankiew thankiew wor !
='( but dun sad sad le wor
or else i wanna cry again le
don't be envious of other couples le
she wanted you to share your love with your next most beloved girl de :)
sssooo.. grab a new girl !
omg, i think i sound so mean..

2910'o5
today i made pizza den bring to darling de hse wor
hehe. WAKE MY PIGGIE UP NEHH !
so naughty hehe.
*tickle tickle tickle*
my baby =)
hehe so happy darling enjoyed eating it

1310'o5
ooo!
forget to post on something hehe
QUIDAM !!
hehe. went to watch with darling orhh
so sweet nehh
darling so so so SWEET ! *smiles*
cooked dory fishie and japanese rice
darling eat until so cute orhh hehe
LOVEYOU,


QUIDAM! =)

271o'05
been a long long long time since i last blogged
more than half a month huh ? ahlarmaks
hahas ytd so fun morning went to play pool, shopping
then at night got class gathering go eat steamboat wor !
so fun wor! hahas me, shellchi and xingdan really SIAO de lehh !!
hahas. kicking off our heels and run around bare-footed at marina bay mrt
(i mean, who cares la hahas. there de mrt nobody de mar LOLSS.)
really play until no image liao sia, i think the guys also see until blur diaos liao.
cos hv to wait one hr at the mrt station for the rest of the class
>.< earlier =",="">

den hahas so funny, randall there carrying all my shopping bags even my jacket >.<>

091o'05

ooo. jianxiong's birthday celebration hahas. so funny, he very cute wor like shy shy lidat LOLSS.

161o'05

hehe went shopping with serene so funny hahas den we went to eat wor

[o31o'2oo5]
hees. today go watch corpse bride with my baby =)
so sweet. huggyhuggy hehes.
hmm. although we jus met up for a while,
but im also really happy too hehes.
BBUUTT !!! DARLING LATE ORHH !!! horhor !!
aww. the gentleness of the kiss on my cheeks
im m e s m e r i z e d. felt so loved
falling in love with him.. all over again.

den go home le very bored orhh.
den.. *bulb lights up on top of fidel's head*
PLAY HAIR LA !
den the results .. TA DA !! bbahahas.


fidel #o1


fidel #o2


fidel #o3 HAHAHAS. darling cropped off my cleavage hahahs. SO CCUUTTEEE !


[o41o'2oo5]
today went to darling's hse so sweet lehh !
we went strolling ..
see other people hse's de doggie
hehe imagine next time we married ..
den i walking a siberian husky, den darling walking a chihwahwa.
AHLARMAKS!! HOW CAN !!!! >.< !!
hehe den went thru scripts with him ahlarmaks.
darling your chinese... i.. i.. GOT NTH TO SAY ARHH. FAINTS.
darling ssooo cheeky hehes. naughty wor !

hhehe. last month, AARRHHMMM ~

[o51o'2oo5]
sparco call me pancake today !
he say i hungry call me eat myself ! SSOO MMEEANN !!
omg. im having bad dreams again.
dreadful.
i woke up crying this morning, heart beating ever so quickly.
dreaming about someone,
i think commiting suicide or sth den blood was like, everywhere
all over the places puddles of blood, den i dun rmb le..

why am i having these weird dreams ? people chasing after me,
another guy trying to kiss me in my slp ? totally freakish.
jeline told me sometimes having nightmares are connected to stress.
stress. hais.


I Love You